have managed to do this another round
to the beach and to the lake
this was the plan,
our plan
to spend time at the lake
and to spend time at the beach
in between, another life-time, changes with family and friends
some beloveds older and more frail, some have gone on
fast friends and mentors reappeared after long absences
off kilter with children, unable to support on terms dictated "for their situation now"
truth not allowed
marriages at a reckoning
clear eyed and silent
going forward
homefront split and at odds, hate, not great again
for short time, other lands sanctuary like
awesome recognition of deep history, sometimes horrifying and sad
there are continuances of steadfasts
go back to the voices that calm and inspire
now, dreaming of wave sounds against the shore, feel temperature hot and humid
grass gardens and dirt roads
Arrival
Rain, cold on the way 33 degrees through Montana. No water, propane heat, the pine tree, as in Big Pine or Pineview split and the top broke off and was laying in the yard as we drove up. Lucky it had not crashed into the cabin roof.
As part of the Intention of being here is to develop my writing practice I am listening to to the Well Storied podcast on writing. I know the drill - now to commit. Need to listen again with focus.
MPR local weather and news is referring to the cold, wet rainy weather. The whole midwest has had rainy weather for months resulting in major floods. Still climate deniers in this region, and many of them Trump voters. They still don't acknowledge that the drastic wet weather, and other storms, like tornados, are probably a result of a change to the climate.
I listened to a writing podcast - from the Well Storied blog. I would like to find more actual writing blogs to listen to. The episode I selected was around committing to a writing practice. I bemoaned that I was not committed, yet as I think about it, I have written in some sort of blog, diary or journal for years. What I am lacking is the guts to go forward - to move to the next level. To really create a writing project more than the other venues. What to write? So I do the Morning Pages and various blogs I have going. Again, I want to mention that I began Morning Pages last year, 2018, including reading Julia Cameron's book introducing Morning Pages as a way to develop creativity. I began writing pages soon after arriving to Big Pine and have managed to continue to write through the year.
I know I have written about this many times, needing to go forward, needing to define a writing practice time and moving to defining what to write. In the meantime, reading other memoirs or listening to blogs and podcasts on writing is part of the process.
I included the photo of the bullet journal example as a reminder that bulleted lists is a way to move forward. Writing Intentions, listing to do's. Using lists to create an outline of a writing project, looking at some of the tools for writing I have heard about in the podcasts and blogs.
On another note is that Buddy made it through the ride across country, which is amazing since he started being shaky with diarrhea, arthritis, sore butt, etc. He is better with all of his meds but he is still a little shaky. Right now he is laying on his bed and blankets, looking cuddly and cute.
The other Hutchings is in his chair snoring away. He has been moody, angry and on edge. I am choosing not to get caught up, I am being still, calm and thinking always and what I need to do to continue to grow and to enjoy my retirement while making a supportive contribution.
Last night, I did hear the loons. Have not seen them yet, have not walked down to the water, but hearing the loons, seeing the island form the window, watching the spring leaves leaf out, is all part of the settling in of being present here at Big Pine.
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