Endings
anger, sadness, depression, denial, bargaining
Neutral Zone
anxiety, looking back, scattered, unclear goals, push/pull, acceptance
New Beginings
anticipation, looking forward, focused, goal oriented, energized, optimistic
I need to remember that when I finally retire from Corporate work - there will be some craziness, and Rome will probably not be supportive. He won't tolerate my being a little crazy.
There is a lot of talk about planning. I think I have planned. We have planned. I am concerned about "time". What will I do?
What do I want to do? I want to travel in the EU - live in the EU. I don't know if our planning will support that. So, did we not plan well enough?
It might be fun to go to ND, to go to Lake of the Woods, to travel Oregon. To investigate Portland. To continue to stay at Big Pine Lake for a few years.
Dreams? Live where I want to. The ability to travel. If I was financially independent I would travel. I would study, read, tour, take a variety of classes, keep a journal, maybe teach something? Blog and have it published or shared? Spend time with my family, siblings, etc.
What surfaces? Travel, intellectual pursuits, creativity. But there is frustration around creativity. The fear of the blank page, are my paintings, writing, whatever good enough or unique, creative?
Values?
Community/affiliation
Creativity
Economic security
Education
Environmental responsibility
Family
Friendship
Inner harmony
Mental stimulation
Spirituality
Wealth
Top 5 Strengths?
Intuition
Communication skills
Ability to collaborate
Being organized
Ability to see a bigger picture
What provides meaning? My family, spiritual pursuits, art, stories like history (L&C).
Passion? I have been passionate about Lewis and Clark, about paddling, about history and art.
I want to be known for being a decent person. (I have guilt over many things, short comings, behaviors, things I have done, not done, said...)
Life purpose? To be calm, to be humble. To grow intellectually, spiritually. To do service - coaching, support to others, to listen.
Interests
history
water sports (swimming, paddling, fishing)
reading
making art
studying art
fabric and collage
travel
coffee
meditation and spiritual pursuits
I like to be alone.
Where would I live? A city in the EU, Italy.
A city - to be close to coffee, art, theatre, groups, shopping, music...
But I also love quiet - being in the woods, or at the lake. I don't like traffic or crowds. I want to be in a book club, a writing club - be with a group of like minded to interact with. But I am fearful of some people. I love to go to coffee with friends.
I like to hike or go for walks - the EU thing is all about walking around the city or wherever. I like to paddle, swim, etc.
Go to galleries, plays, etc. with friends. Conferences or classes.
I have long term friends. I have recovery friends. I need to meet new friends in Oregon. I have close friends from work.
Being with family requires travel. Being with many friends requires travel too.
Leisure?
Art
Culture
Hobbies - collage, art journaling,
Reading
Shopping
Touring history or parks etc
Hiking
Paddling
Travel
Going out for coffee
On going learning
Teaching?
Community Service? AA - I want to do more once I have more time. Volunteer somewhere.
Physical health and exercise is important, recently I am aware that my right hip is really bothering me. It may be time to consider having the right hip replaced - next spring in MN maybe.
Spirituality goals:
On Being listener, blogger?
I wish I was close to a Monastery or retreat center - Benedictine or Ignacious, maybe Buddhists?
I have thought of becoming an Oblate. Participating with the Sisters etc.
I want to take some time off and do some things. Later, I may want to work again - project work related to my career?
Teaching? Community Ed? Weight Watchers leader?
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