quiet, gray, wet, rainy, snowy...48 hours of solitude

snowy, rainy, beach walk

quiet weekend
a few good things happened
found a cool art store in astoria
bought "gelato" creamy paint sticks
created a journal page on saturday, at first looked so "usual" the same stuff I always do
frustrating,  need to break out of the same stuff I do
but really the best thingis that I did something
I made art!!

I had coffee with the program women, Bagels by the Sea, met a "yoga" young woman who had an inspiring story of becoming sober and being able to move again, ability to heal damaged nerves

I was stiff and sore, but did do video stretching and yoga
listened to audio books, finished one

the point is to move forward and take small steps, move, create art, write, journal, walk

mostly  I spent the weekend at home, quiet and alone.  I enjoy being alone.

Solitude is good for me.  Being independent and alone, is something I do well, do enjoy.

All of this is part of finguring out what I can do going forward - getting ready for not doing corporate work.

Art on paper, collage and art journals, and digital art, with writing.

Continues.  Today in corporate land a software glitch so invasive and explainable surfaced.  Of course, it was there all along.  Not sure why it just became visible over the last few days.

This kind of stuff that is difficult to figure out, not easy to fix, large impact to business and creates miss trust with clients goes on all the time.  Seems to be worse with this Solution than others.  Not sure if that is accurate.

I am assigned.  But what can I do? This will take a concentrated engineering miracle to figure out. And fix.

When this stuff surfaces - I just want to quit.  Time to retire. I am tired of the Solution challenges.  I feel for our clients and we are so lean on resources that know anything - this stuff does not get fixed timely.  In this case - hard to figure what happened.

I googled how much are taxes in retirement.   Get me out of here.  Is it time to take the leap? Talk to the tax guy.

Going to vent for a moment: I am sick of this solution that has so many limitations and is so broken. Software has challenges and I have seen much over my career - but this product is really bad.  The company does not take responsibility. So concerned about metrics - push on the metrics - but when an engineering mess occurs - do not step up to fix it.   They created my role - but I can't fix it, did not cause, and am not responsible.